feeling good.

So been meaning to blog this for a little while too, finally getting around to it now.

Summer has turned out to be pretty amazing. So much awesome stuff has been happening, and I can honestly say, I'm truly happy right now, and it's been awhile since I've been able to say that. Not that I've been depressed or anything, that's not what I'm saying...it's just I'm actually happy about pretty much 99% of the stuff in my life at this very moment. I don't need to go into great detail, but work is fantastic, I love my friends, school hasn't been so bad for summer, and I've been dancing a ton. I've been fairly well behaved this summer too. Not drinking/going out as wildly as I did last summer, and I've actually stayed single, hah! So proud of myself. But yeah, I'm genuinely happy right now and it feels so amazing. It feels so, so good to be able to say that for once, because usually there's at least one serious thing bothering me.

But the main thing is the whole 'single life' thing. I've finally become comfortable with it. Last summer, my first 'single' summer, I went nuts with boys in a way because I felt I needed that. Now, I've realized I don't need that. Of course I sometimes miss having a boyfriend, and I still have my crushes, but I don't care that much anymore. If something awesome pops up, that's great, but it's not at the top of my priorities right now and being single, I have so much freedom that I'm finally fully appreciating. I love it. And the best part? I've been feeling so confident in myself lately. I don't know what happened, but it's awesome. I still have some self-conscious body image issues, but every girl does a bit. But yeah, I've been feeling so confident, so sure of myself, and even just typing this out, it makes me even happier to realize that I've finally reached this point. I really can't express how much it really means to me to feel like this. So yeah. Needed to blog that, because I have way too many emo moments and blogs, hah.

But anyways, on a lighter but related note. Posted this on tumblr, and putting it here as well.
So just got home from dance a little while ago, and I was super sweaty and stuff, but definitely an awesome class…and somehow, my hair looks really awesome right now (at least I think so hah). Like, its that sexy, messy, bedhead, sex hair thing by complete accident… (and unfortunately, minus the sex/bed part LOL) but yeah. And of course, hair always turns out great when you have nowhere to go, and when you try it never happens…so yeah. But basically, the point of this post is also - right now I feel good, I feel confident, I feel sexy and yeah. I feel like I look amazing right now. Sorry to be vain, but I have to sometimes.
Just thought I’d share that. Hah.